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Unlovable.

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I'm never enough am I?!
I try and try and try...
But I feel like I can never please you.
You don't trust me.
Don't believe me.
Don't CARE?!
Whatever.. I don't care either.
It's not like this hasn't happened before..

EVERYBODY?!
Hating at once?
What am I supposed to do?
Supposed to say?
Supposed to feel?
It's never good enough.
Not for you.
Or for me.
Somebody out there...
Feels this way too...
Right?

Am I worth it?
How many people are always "really there?!"
Who are my real friends?
Why does everybody come to me?!
No... Of course I don't care.
I just wish I opened up that much.
Why am I just so trustworthy?

Am I trustworthy?
How much have I changed since last year?
Nobody should've trusted me LAST year.
What's different?
I DON'T GET IT.

UGH SHUT UP SHUT UP.
Don't you understand? 
I want to punch you in the face.
...wait. What?!
Is this how people really feel?
About
       Me?
            Am
                I
                 That
                      TERRIBLE?!

Awful person.
Cruel friend.
But...
It can't be like that.

"Think about this. 

The person you are going to marry is walking the Earth at this very second. 

That thought alone should give you hope to continue each and every day, knowing someone, somewhere is completely in love with you, even if you both don't know it yet."

Bullshit.
I can't be loved. 
NOBODY CAN LOVE ME.

Bitchy.
Egotistical.
Hypocrite.
WHY WOULD SOMEBODY WANT ME? 
Nobody would.

Leave.
       Me.
           Alone.




I'm
                                            falling
                                 apart.
I'm really not sure right now.
Everybody had to dump their crap on me at once.
I've been kinda... Sad lately.
This only took me a few minutes.
Might be scrapped...
I just typed everything that was going through my head.

Edit: I changed the last stanza. It flows/sounds better now.. I think.
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ChloEcREm's avatar
Very passionate, I love it :D